I'm not cheating or copping out I swear ;) I knew when I read about this challenge that it is just the type of challenge I needed. I've been asking God for some time to make me into the person where He is on the throne and He is first above all in my life. More of Him, less of me. What better way to work towards that than 17 posts of it not being about me, but about Him? Well it's great in theory...unless you really aren't getting it.
Ya I can write it...but am I feeling it in my heart? Am I really putting it into practice? One thing you must know about me is I am really hard on myself. I take matters of my faith and growth very seriously. To a fault almost. But other times I think it greatly benefits me. It keeps me from being a lukewarm Christian. And I hold to the faith that my discipline to not accept just average will shape and form me into the woman of God that He wants me to be. So for me, just simply writing the day's post about a certain subject and how it's not about me is not enough. I want to write what is resounding in my heart and what the Lord is showing me and what I am resolving to change/implement into my life and walk with Jesus.
I am sure some of you are thinking "Well ya, duh, that's what you're supposed to do." And I commend you for getting it from the start :) I, on the other hand, realized last night that without realizing it I fell into my trap of writing the right thing rather than writing what God has put on my heart or sharing a lesson that I've learned from the Holy Spirit and something that I am resolving to put into my own life's daily practice. I have a habit of always wanting to give the right answer. To say or write what I know would be the appropriate answer or what appears to be godly wisdom beyond my years. Now don't get me wrong, I don't always write this way. But I'm must admitting in this case, I have been. Which has led me to today's statement. This challenge should not be about me. It should be about Him and what He is going to show me through the next couple weeks. I am resolving to let the Lord and His Holy Spirit guide me each post and show me, rather than me using common sense on the things that are supposed to be about Him and not me.
So today, I have truly realized, this challenge is not about me!
* I feel like I have to put in a sidenote that this does not mean the last three days have been made up or that they are not true (trials, time, and my children are about Him and not me). I just want to challenge myself (once again, in no way implying that yall haven't gotten this concept from the start!) further in letting God into this challenge (imagine that, letting God into a challenge that is supposed to be about Him) and letting Him tell me what each "Not About Me" should be and in that change me and refine me. More of Him, less of Me. Just felt I should clarify that ;)