I missed the first day of the Not About Me challenge, so I am going to do two posts in one day to catch up. So consider this Day 2 of the challenge.
I am learning very quickly that time is His. God has His own timing that we do not understand. I was tempted to write "God's timing is always perfect, and God is always on time." But I felt the conviction that my faith and actions reveal that I don't truly believe that. There are times that I try to muster up the faith to live as if God is not late, that He is not lollygagging. But when I live and believe it is all about me....it is hard. But even though I do not see His work behind the scenes or see His time sheet and schedule, I feel so strongly that the time has not yet come. And I trust that. I am learning to trust Him. I am not fully there yet, there is a lot of baggage and mistrust that I don't even know why I have with God, but for whatever reason it is there. But even so, something so strongly in me resounds and agrees, God's timing is perfect. Even if I may not have seen it yet in my marriage and the crisis therein, my spirit can't help but shout He is perfect, and He knows best, and His timing is perfect. It is not about me, or what I think should happen at what time. It is about His perfect will, and in His infinite wisdom, He knows the timing, He knows when certain things are to take place and how. It's a lot to grasp and so many questions rise in me. But I feel like I can truly know, time is about Him.